school...education.........

something that i've started years ago and never finished....

but because i didn't know what to do!! and i feel like i don't have the time right now...

and most of all...the funds :(

i absolutely cannot afford an education on my own right now and financial aid/loans are...a big committment i'm not willing to make...

and besides... i STILL don't know what i want to do...

does everyone know what they want to be? is anyone else as confused and undecided like me?

i feel like a nobody because i don't have a passion... and i don't think i'm talented or especially great in anything...

i just want to .. be happy without worrying or feeling pressured to have an education/career...

i just don't think it's for me. school was never for me.. i tried for a few years and it slowly became meaningless to me... let's face it, school is an investment into your future. i feel it's a waste for me to invest in it because i know i won't finish it... and i'm not looking to be this mega-rich career woman. i'm not dedicated enough to do that...and i won't be happy just going to work and living my life in that way...

so ok.. maybe not a career but maybe i can get a BOOST in my education.. right?

so i looked into some schools...again.... and checked out the different programs...again...

(and even though nothing tickled my fancy, a few classes sounded fun/interesting)

but as i looked... i'd have to attend classes during the weekdays--but hello!!! i work !!!!

not ALL classes are offered online and on weekends...

so how the hell am i supposed to do this now?! is it my fault i couldn't get something while i was young and before i moved out?!

ugh... really frustrates me... it feels unfair...unfair that because i didnt' know what i wanted to do when i was young-i missed out on my opportunity to finish classes comfortably.

holy moly... i'm ranting aren't i?